A text to remember
I sent the following text to my mom about an hour ago. This is for my bizarro twitter followers that may be concerned by my tweet about not doing well. As you’ll read below, I am now:
"I know you’re sleeping and your phone’s dead, but I just want you to read this when you wake up and be comforted that I am feeling much better. Weirdly before going to the gym, I was trudging along, wasting time before going, trying to put new books on my kindle. I figured a better book would make it easier at the gym during the elliptical- the hardest part of my work out. So I was searching on the St. Charles public library thing for a long time. I put a couple books on and still was looking for a third. I came to some book by Katie Couric, whose show I watch occasionally at the gym; and since one time while watching she said tequila is the only thing that doesn’t give her a hangover and I thought that was funny, I rented her book and put it on the kindle. Cut to the bad news during the end of the strength training portion of my work out. I talked to you. I went back in and tried to continue. I did more strength training because I didn’t want to do the elliptical- I didn’t think I could do the hardest part of my work out, the most mentally and emotionally draining under the current circumstance. But I grabbed my kindle and went on the elliptical. Immediately I turned it on and opened Katie Couric’s book to take my mind off my own mind. And in the first part of her book, she talks about how in the darkest moments of her life, it’s been the words of others to get her through. The book is called The Best Advice I Ever Got. Through continuing to read and run, something extraordinarily life changing happened- I started to feel better with the words of others. As I ended my work out, I read the last line of the current chapter I was on, "If you realize that disappointment will always be part of the equation, regardless of how unfair it feels, your recovery time will be much faster." I lifted the kindle and looked at the stats on the elliptical- I ran my fastest time ever. And then I broke down and started crying of happiness. God is good and cares and so do you. I have a plan— I see that now, but now I have the tools to take part in it."